Samurai Flamenco - Worse In My Head [Gotoyoshi]

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Title: worse in my head
Fandom: Samurai Flamenco
Characters/Pairing: Gotou/Masayoshi
Rating: T
Length: 341
Summary: “It’s just four days,” Masayoshi said, disappointment brimming in his voice.

“It’s just four days,” Masayoshi said, disappointment brimming in his voice. “Just” four days they’d be apart, one of the longest stretches since he’d invited Masayoshi to stay at his apartment all those months ago. Gotou raised an eyebrow, brushed aside the worry forming in his gut like a cancer and said flippantly in response, “good, maybe now I’ll get a full night’s sleep and not wake in a puddle of drool.”

Masayoshi punched him in the arm — not hard, he never punched, it was more of a close-fisted smack, an acknowledgement of the comment but not an agreement — and said vehemently, “I don’t drool, Gotou-san! And at least I don’t snore!”

“Yes, you do,” Gotou said absently, and wondered if Masayoshi could tell.

#

He couldn’t see Masayoshi off, but that was better. Masayoshi’s farewell kiss in the morning had been toothpaste-fresh, his hair still slightly damp and soft. Gotou’s phone went off in the middle of his shift, vibrated a few times against his keyboard, and when he turned it over it was Masayoshi, sending him snaps from the airplane. Gotou smiled, turned the phone back over, and ignored the voice that whispered he wouldn’t hear Masayoshi’s voice again.

#

The bed was bigger without Masayoshi in it, no matter how ridiculous it felt. Gotou lay on his side, face illuminated as he stared at the phone screen, watched the active dots as Masayoshi typed a response. He was at a dinner function, he shouldn’t even have his phone out but he was texting Gotou anyway. It chased away a little of the black ball of worry he wasn’t able to ignore any longer; not in the darkness of the apartment, alone.

Later still, the television off now and the darkness wrapped around him like a living blanket, the phone by his hand lit up like a beacon. Tousle-headed and sleepy, snaps from Masayoshi in his hotel room. finally back in my room

Half-naked, blurry selfie in the hotel bathroom. miss you gotou-san

Gotou smiled into his pillow, closed his eyes and went to sleep.